Attempts at finding universal truth in personal experiences.
I suppose I’ve held the same idealized view of friendship since childhood when I thought I could be everybody’s friend. Though this isn’t the place to delve into why friendship for me was placed on such a high pedestal so early on, I do know my self-worth was somehow entangled in the need to be liked. So I tried to practice the golden rule with everyone I met and usually this worked. From pre-school to university, moving with my family…
Stay focused. Stay on task. How do I even have a shot at independence if I can’t do these things? I wake up this morning, full of hope because it’s morning. There hasn’t been enough time for me screw up, has there? I peak out my bedroom door. The house is blissfully quiet so I go to the kitchen and take my first pill with a full glass of water. This one’s for my thyroid and must be taken on…
It’s better I write. Trust me. I’ve heard it said I write the way I speak and write with simplicity. But I don’t take offense. Large words have always intimidated me and I’ve learned to avoid them in ordinary conversation. Still, I’m delighted to read them or hear others pronounce them out loud, with unabashed boldness. I only wish I had that kind of confidence. As it is, I usually fear I’ll misuse words and embarrass myself in front of…